Unbearable..

It has just reached mid-night and i am still wide awake.

It certainly has been a tormenting week for me, due to several issues, affecting me both financially and relationship wise.

Even the weather outside is not favoring me too much as it had started raining like theres no tomorrow. It's raining as if typhoon Megi just passed by. The trees are shaking and huge droplets of rain come splashing against my window.

It just sums up my week to be honest.

My week started off pretty bad, when my world literally came crashing down after my so-called ex decided that we probably had reached the end of the line. Freedom was her main reason excuse. I just don't buy that type of shit anymore.

Just recently, i noticed a considerable amount of change in her ways, thinking and style. It must be down to the people she mixes with either in school or outside. Not good friends indeed. She had been spending time with people whom she should be staying away from but due to her stubborn nature, a little advice from me would actually cause her to throw a tantrum. Very disappointing indeed.

She asked to be given her own space, or in other words, to be left alone to do whatever she wishes. But had she not known, all these while, i am the person who should be asking for it instead of her. I gotta admire her swift response and request for a quick way out without giving me a proper reason.

I honestly feel that she is losing herself. She could not even trust people who are close to her, let alone her family members. That's really a sad thing indeed. If i am her brother or some shit, i would gave her a whack on the head to wake her up. Too bad, i can't. But i would love too.

So, bullshits after bullshits were spewed out. None of it makes sense and i went home extremely agitated by events that unfolded few days later. My questions were not properly answered, and if it had been answered, it wouldn't make any sense at all.

Somehow i took the bullet and accepted things as it was. I've learnt that when it comes to separation, nothing makes sense at all, and if we were to put some sense into it, no one would have asked for a break.

This is not my first time, i could officially close this case as my third time. All i wanted was honesty. Hope she learns from it with an open heart.

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Time changes me

3 years.

Time changes a person. Time changes everything. Their believes, their thoughts, their companions, their friends and their destiny.

3 years was all it took to changed me.

Probably it was too late to regret, but never too late to start afresh.

I certainly do missed the good ol' days hanging out with my mates and do whatever i wanted. Even though 3 years passed which i somehow find myself engaged in a daily exercise or routine to be with that someone, somehow i never forget my friends or those who are close to me.

I had always kept them in my heart.

I hope they shall accept me back as the person i am, not the person i was.

Light at the end of the tunnel?

You left without a reason.

It was better not knowing why.

Somehow you already had took a long while,

To end with such a decision.

Peekabo ... i See you!

Our worst fears finally materialized. My current workplace is offering every workers a chance to demonstrate how well they could perform their duties under the watchful eye of security cameras.

Not only are they trying to rip our privacy to shreds, they are now attempting to take it up another level by installing cameras at the pantry.

I understand their main concerns about our dietary habits, but then i can see no other reason for doing so aside from monitoring our movements, as some of our female colleagues tend to LINGER / LOITER around the pantry in the morning.

Professionally, i do not agree with the setting up of CCTVs in the office. It's such a shame that my beloved company had stoop so low that they do not even trust their fellow workers.

Who are they monitoring and why is there a need to incur more money on such costly wastage?

Personally, i am giving them the two thumbs up plus a royale middle finger salute for encroaching the privacy of our fellow workers. I don't feel work efficiency shall increase as a result of this.

I suggest the management to reconsider their panel of decision makers because it seems that they are doing things right financially but they lack that common sense when it comes to dealing with their employees.

It's a rude assessment of their capabilities when it comes to dealing with their employees but in order for a company to move forward, they have to stop doing things backward.

Installing CCTVS to monitor your workers is an added stress to your fellow workers, and stressful workers does not work as efficiently as you think they might.

Friends or Foes

It has been a long long while since i last wrote something and of cause even longer since i last visited facebook.

As i went through my friend's status, i realized that one of my colleagues had actually remove me from her friends list.

It did not surprise me at first, because of the misapprehension between me and ...her. I have always been very cautious of engaging in any sorts of friendship especially among co workers, but then never did i envision that she would actually remove me from her friends list.

This truly shows how depress, mad and uptight she was about me. I had certainly did something that really got on her nerves.

My friends used to tell me that silence is the best medicine, but i am starting to wonder whether their "useful" advice needs a little tweaking yet?

It all started over some tiny matter which to me is tiny, but to her it was probably the biggest deal in the world. Things got a little bit out of hand in between then and in an instance, we were not on talking terms.

I admit that i did not bother to apologize because i felt that i had done nothing wrong. It's not about not being able to be a gentleman. It was about being a MAN and standing up to what i believe in.

And i believe in being not apologetic. But to her, apologizing in front of her and her fellow friends is the right way to get EVEN with me.

Girl, i like you as a person and as a friend, but you have pushed that too far. It aint gonna happen. I made my decisions and probably you did not see it coming.

All i wanted to say was Sorry for making you mad. But never did i intend on saying sorry to everyone around you?

Please, if you so happen to browse through my blog and somehow you have a feeling i am writing about you, please do not be alarmed. Yes, this is for you and yes i know you are still mad at me and yes have you ever ask why you are still mad at me?

Most probably you knew it earlier than i did.