A wait i can't forget

A wait i can't forget - Theres a place i know called heaven, A place i know that gather tears, because the only thing i know in this world, is your love.


Remember the wait you told me to cherish?
Could this be the last promise we'll ever make?
In truth, i have grown tired of this waiting,
Only if we could just leave it all behind.

I can't even recall how many times i've walked past,
But you never seem to realized,
It's hurting deep inside my heart,
It isn't a pierce that hurts, but rather a slow never ending cut.

However it's a moment too late to turn back,
I remembered to cherished the wait,
In your absence, i've begin to miss you more in my sleep,
How i wished this dream is real,
Your smiles keeps me hoping every single day.

I couldn't blame the world for not treating me fair,
For all that is, all i could say,
I have been lucky to meet you,
But it needs more than that, to be with you.

I love you, but i can never tell you,
If you really cherish my destiny, just set me free,
I love you, but i can never be with you,
Set me free, I've to stop lying to myself in my dreams.

The wait that i've learnt to cherish,
If you still haven't realized,
Does not belong to us, in this life,
I've started to wished it could be,
Perhaps in our next.

I love you, but i'm only able to say it to you in this dream,
If you can't love me, just set me free,
I love you, but i can't lie to you in my sleep,
Because it in, you love me still.

-adamkuek- 30-01-2008

流过生命的.回忆 - Moments we had

流过生命的.回忆 . Moments we had - You probably won't know, that, this was for you. But only if you did.

- Thanks Michelle Ting for the mandarin title.



Now i've understand,
That behind your smile,
Is a broken heart in disguise.

Why did you left in such a hurry,
Do you really hate me that much?
Or were the explanations i made,
You refused to accept?

I know time couldn't possibly heal the rift between us,
Neither could it settle the differences we had,
But i'll live knowing it has not distance us.
If i said i love you once more,
Will you forgive me this fall?

Now i understand,
The moment that you left,
Eventhough my tears are dry,
Every second i breath, my heart quietly cries.

And why did you told me the best room,
IS the room inside the heart of someone you love?
Were those words for me now,
Or for me of the past?

I know this sadness in my heart will forever stay,
And i know yours is covered by scars as well,
What's the use of hating this feeling?
For heaven has given me this sadness,
This feeling in which i'm unable to reject.

If i said i miss you once more,
Will you still open that door,
You probably will never know,
I couldn't sleep if you really chose to go.

This broken heart of yours,
You said you couldn't love with it,
If i have a day more given to us,
I will prepare everything for your happiness.

Now i've understand,
That loving you does not always end up the way i want,
That waiting for you does not meant that you'll come back as one,
That missing you does not only take 7 years of time.

But, by not betraying your own feelings for that one person you'll ever come across,
Once in your life.


-adamkuek- 29-01-2008

I think Nariza is sizzling hot. My finger sizzles the moment i am typing this..

Week of randoms

This few days had not been as interesting as the few i had 2 months ago. Things had gradually slowed down. I thought it's supposed to be all fun-filled and laughters but funnily enough, it HAS NOT BEEN. I had buffet at a respective hotel during lunch for 2 days straight as the highlight of the week. Now, how boring can that get.

















Lately, all my friends are so engrossed in hair trimming that they even went haircut in groups. Seriously, how gay can they get. Anyway, I wanted to have a haircut sooner, but i just could not trust my personal hairstylist anymore. She promised that i would look different and more K-drama liked. She failed me. Miserably. Now i am contemplating on spending the next few days figuring the DIY haircut.

















Oh, this picture here makes me laugh at the sight of it. I came across this light-up signboard on my recent visit to Batu Niah. I wanted to show this to my friend back in Miri but i guess she's just too busy with herself everyday. Yeap, you guess it right, that's her name.

















As i've continuously stated about how dull my life has been. This is another of those dull, boring moments when i took a glass and somehow take pictures of my friend's face through it. It isn't funny at all. But i did laugh for few seconds though.

















Finally, as the week comes to a close, i remembered i took few really decent pictures of sunset along the beach. I found that it looks really nice and sophisticated. Talking about nice and sophisticated, i just persuaded a lady to go for modeling session. Although she might not really take my words for real, somehow i hope she does. I see potential in one and i seriously think she should try it out. Very Very Seriously.

The Cobwebs in my life

This is the interior of my car. It has gone through ups and downs with me. It seriously has. Although not as long as my ex, but long enough to understand the person who drives her everyday.

















I would not had notice this strings of cobweb hanging from side to side if it weren't for the fact that i left my mobile phone in the passenger's dashboard few days back. Of course, i did found my mobile phone if you are so inclined. There's a message which a lady who wrote to me stating that " It's not that you don't need to have your hair done like a popstar to have a gf, it's just that you are too choosy, Don't play expensive " She continued.

















Seriously, i can't even recall what kind of conversation i had with her few days back but judging by the cobwebs from the passenger side, i guess she's not totally wrong with the statement. If i weren't too picky, guess theres no room for little creepy crawlies to play Xmas decorations with me. Sigh.

Oh by the way, my mum always has this thoughts that i always drive girls around which is so not true. Maybe, this picture would make her finally realized that her son is telling the truth.

Prawn Mee @ Sing Chiong Restaurant, Berkenu

This is SING CHIONG Restaurant. Perhaps i do not need to introduce much on this eating establishment which is located at the outskirts of Miri as it's already flocked with people during every weekends. I went to Berkenu few days back just to pay my friend, who happens to be the owner of this restaurant a visit. I promised to come down once every week once in a blue moon to have his Fresh Water prawn mee.

















So as expected, i filled myself up with one of their flagship dish. The Prawn Mee. What were you thinking? Something fancy?

















Theres quite an amount of prawns dumped into my bowl and that certainly made my day.

















This succulent prawns taste so juicy and the meat is so fresh and tender that it really kinda reminds me of someone, sorry, i meant something. It's not spicy but diners who prefer hot and spicy stuffs could request for a rather spicy-filled broth from the chef.

















Word has it that, Berkenu's prawns taste way better than Batu Niahs. Maybe someday you guys should just go up and try. Remember, inform them that you saw it from my site. Who knows they might just offer me free lunch the next time i visit them.

From the shore of sadness

For the girl i knew back then, fate brought us so far, It's up to us to make it happen. Did you remember that?


It is said that happiness awaits at the other side,
Sadness dwells within our hearts like the dark clouds above,
The reason that we met is because of fate,
Until today, i refused to give up on that.

Time has painfully drifted by,
The footprints that we left once are now washed away,
The scent of yours are replaced by the dandelions that sways,
Leaving long lasting memories of you and me.

Whenever the wind blows before sunsets,
I feel your presence in the distance,
If you were to come back again,
I will still love you again.

My world shattered like a broken glass the day you left,
Constantly leaving me with a painful wound,
How could it be healed within an instance,
When the only person who could melt it back has left.

In your absence, this shore i am standing on keeps me hoping,
Every breath i take is still awaiting your return,
In truth, i've never could have come this far,
I wouldn't if the shattered memories never float back.

Funny how in this cruel and suffocating world,
Could be easily transformed into heaven by a single person,
If you were to come back again,
I will not let you go again.

Watching the dragonfly in the air,
It seems as if it has lost it's way,
I promised to erase the moments we had before you left,
But for you, i'll rather live my life with all the bruises till death,
If i really had to.

- adamkuek - 23-01-2008-

Even if ( It's OK )

This is dedicated to one of the close friends i had. Maybe it's a little bit too late.



Even if ( It's ok )

A long time ago, I met a young girl with that big eyes of hers,
Her long black hair and school uniform fits her so well,
Every word she speaks are like every chords in a song,
The smiles of hers forever hides in my heart.

In no time, she became that woman with deep eyes,
Her smiles forever reminding me of the first day we met,
Every touch of her fingertips reminded me of the first time we hold each other's hand,
Somehow in time, i found i might have to let her go,

Sometimes i fear i might forget,
Time is ticking and running out for me,
I should have let you knew before you leave,
That you had given me the world.

But i kept stalling in a distance,
Because i couldnt give you anything,
I realized i should have let you knew,
Since it's the only wish you made before you go.

From your bedside i am whispering,
I'll still be by your side, even if it aches me to say this.

Even if loving you is a burden, it's ok.
Even if i can't hold your hands again, it's ok
Even if i am not able to hear your voice again, it's ok
Even if you're not able to smile back at me again, it's ok
Even if your tears ceases to drop again, it's ok
Even if you can't recall my voice, it's ok.
Even if your eyes stop seeing me, it's ok
Even if you're not able to feel the warmth of my palm anymore, its ok
Even if you've lost all your memories with me, its ok
Even if it means forgetting me in your life, its ok.
Even if it hurts til the very end, it's ok.

It's ok ... as long as i can see you get well again.


-adamkuek- 21-01-2008

In this sleep, theres a song

Even if we started out first as a misunderstanding, why should it end with one too?


There's a song which is echoing in my ear,
I tried to open my eyes, but i couldn't,
I tried to open my mouth, but there's no sound,
I clenched my fist, tears slowly dropping down,

You keep on asking the title of this song in my sleep,
You turned away as i told you it's a secret,
Why did you act in such a way when things don't go your way,
Why didn't you chose to know the contents instead?

In this dream, i have walked too far,
Further than my legs could carry me,
I refused to look back from where i'm standing,
because i know that's what loneliness awaits.

You entered my life with that everlasting smile,
You laid on my shoulders whenever you're down,
Why did you did all that when you know it will all end,
Why didn't you chose to say goodbye first instead?

From this sleep, your voice is fading eventually,
The pictures of you which i'm holding is slowing wearing out,
I promised myself not to whisper your name when i'm awake,
I promised myself not to take the path you took when you left.

You might be counting your time backwards in life,
You might be wishing i am doing the same,
Why did you start bringing hope when there's actually none,
Why didn't you just spare and treasure the good times behind instead.

In this sleep tears are starting to form like crossroads,
But the tears that betrayed me once refused to fall down straight this time,
It's freezing up as i've find it hard to open my eyes,
Please let me do so, please let me go,
Then this frozen tears could dissipate...
For me to see you again ......at least.


-adamkuek- 21-01-2008

It's been a year in this misty world

Why do you always wander, Why do you always hesitate on what you want to say,
No matter what, love, fate, even life, all fade in front of goodbyes.



A year drifted past longer than i expected,
Since it was the beginning of the end for us,
I thought the road to recovery takes just a few steps,
Memories i had with you came rushing back,
Just like water streaming down,
How am i able to slow it down with my bare hands,

The shyness that brings forth the moment i confessed my love for you,
Lingers on clearly when the bell chimes,
It was , on your birthday that i met someone new,
Someone who has the same name as you, Someone who smiles like you ,
..and someone who makes my heart beat like you do.

The laughters, hopes, and wishes we shared,
Are forever buried deep down in a soft misty sanctuary,
From now, i'm left with the last memory to make,
The never ending wait and tears for you.

I couldn't say i stopped loving you,
I couldn't say i stopped missing you,
Because that warm gaze of yours,
Was brighter than the ring on your left hand.
How could i ever stopped and how could i ever not,
When that misty santuary forever exist in me.


-adamkuek- 18-01-2008

I Believe ( in me )

Life is not about saying sorry, but it's about being thankful.


The rays from the sun sets me awake,
Another day has passed and i still feel sad,
I shouldn't have and i shouldn't be,
Waking up, knowing you're now making your own new memories.

I cry and i shout in my dreams,
The only place i can hide all my feelings,
Even if my hope of us is covered in darkness,
I'll still wake up as long as i breathe, in search of the new us.

I believe in me, in my heart,
Even when you fall, i'll be there,
Not to fall with you, but to hold you before you do.

I believe in me, in my mind,
Even if you've a changed of heart, i'll be there,
Not to cry over you, but to wipe away your tears instead,

I believe in me, in my soul,
Even if you hate me for loving you, i'll still be there,
Not to make up with you, but to put that smile back into you,

And i believe in me, in all my yearning,
Even if you have to go before me, i'll always be there,
Not to see you go, but to be forever that person whose by your side,
all his life.



-adamkuek- 18-01-2008

Miniature Motor Driven Bike for SALE - RM 1200 ( Nego )

I am doing this on behalf of my football buddy. This miniature motor driven bike will be in your responsible hands for the amount of RM 1200.00. ( Negotiable ) . The owner gave me the green light to call this bike , Samantha.

















My football buddy decided to call it quits on his teenage years and is very reluctant to sell off this bike of his which he had many many fond memories of.

















It's well taken care of and ever since he resprayed the whole bike, he never had let anybody touch nor intruded it yet. I was one of the lucky fews to actually had my hands on this neatly done up bike the other day.

















It even beats our nation's pride - the kancil at 80 km/h by a distance of 3 cars on 2 km stretch along the boulevard road. According to the owner of this wonderful bike, it has gone through up and downs with him while he was plying his trade in Miri as the owner himself is a Kuchingnite.

Samantha certainly catch the eye of many. The view from the backside looks so inviting that it kinda build an urge for me to feel the flow of it's tailpipe. It must be really " EXHAUSTING" revving it right there from the back.

















Seriously, the attention to detail is carefully modified and it looks just as new as it is before. The good thing about this little devil here is it's already modified for any race events. Be it drag or some girl-impressing session.

















A closer look at the motor. Personally, i feel theres too much decoration on it. But no worries, it's only stickers and it could be peeled off easily too.

















Its a shame that i didn't had a test run on it the other day because time wasn't too kind on me. I had always wanted to own one of this little fellas and take it out on a run every sunday at Esplanade just to impressed a few. But all this impress and feel good factor could be yours, for i am helping my friend to let go of his beloved bike.

















Just like any other ordinary sports bike, its a one seater.

















The tyres are still in tip top condition. View to believe.

















Any good advertisement wouldn't be good enough without a complimentary picture of myself sitting and holding onto lovely samantha. It could be all yours for RM 1200.00 though.

Arrange for a test run and i personally shit you not, this thing is as good as it gets.


** SMS or Call me at 014 687 9316 . Callers at night are subjected to a round of drink for me for waking me up from sleep.



*** By the way, any ladies by the name of Samantha, i apologize to you in advanced. But seriously, Samantha is a lovely name and lovely certainly suits this bike.

A happy new year to you.

A happy new year to everyone. A Happy new 2008. I have not been around for quite some time due to certain things that pop up SUDDENLY. I know i am always late. So , this article could be the first for this year.

So, while i was wasting my time back in 1U few weeks ago, my mum kinda rearranged my room across the ocean. I came back few days later, only to realized a love-shaped box sitting shyly on my cupboard.

















I swore i can't recall whoever that gave me this or how did it ended up there. Hence, my curiosity got the better of me and i opened up and have a peek, only to find pieces of ... puzzles in it. You see, i am not a big fan of puzzle assembling so i did not bother to take the effort to piece it back into a complete picture. Not until my dad took matters into his own hands.

















My dad kindly offered his 3 hours picking up the pieces and arranged it back into something understandable.

















I took over the task from him and finished off the missing pieces. Honestly, it was hard work. I've never ever try to finish or even started puzzle fixing a girl's face. At the time this picture was taken, i still can't quite figure out who she is.

















Until the moment, when i finally place the final piece of the puzzle back to where it belongs. It so happens to be my friend. I do not know whether to laugh or cry once i dissect everything in. Should i just gave this back to her when she comes back or just keep it back in my cupboard? I still can't quite figure out why it ended there though.