Title: Undecided

Title: undecided ( I guess this was what you had to say to me before you left, and before you took back all the words )


I'm sorry, your cries, i had enough,
Walking together these while has been tough,
You only serves to break the heart,
It's better off for us to part.

A single nothing in us to yield,
If we carry on together still,
None the reason for you to cry & kneel,
When your words are all but real.

A punctured heart, I've grown used to,
Your words helped made it see through,
When was my love ever real for you?
Forget about the promises which you said were new.

Days gone by and theres none to say,
You grew as my regret day by day,
Forever gone, hoping you may,
I'm sorry, I've grown weary of your ways.

You played the part of a mistaken soul,
Every good you did were just for show,
Time will tell when your heart shall sore,
For a love that deserves to soar.


- adamk 29-08-08

How Far

.... we walked that far to see it through at the very end.



Tell me what love is,
And how it came to me like this,
Could it be what i really need,
What would have been living without it?

Having no control over this feeling,
Around her seems like a blessing,
Never ceases to amazed,
How did we met in the first place?

Such a fool to slowly realize that,
Of all the feelings when it's too late,
Gone were the dreams like tuesday's morning dew,
Forgetting seems hard when it comes to you.

Believing you could never be the one,
Wishing you are just walking pass once,
What you had left were painful scars,
Asking myself, this love could only go how far?

Knowing it's the wrong thing to do,
How much can a heart go through,
The thoughts of you knows no end,
Being with you again, will it ever end the same?

A love we once thought forever had,
Now leaves a promise once made to share,
As you put your trust in others when i was there,
Marks the end for us in every single way.

-adam K- 27-08-08

A People's Victory !!!

The people has spoken. Anwar won the Permatang Pauh seat with a thumping majority of 15,671. His victory marks a return to Parliament for the PKR adviser after an enforced absence of 10 years.

There's only one swearing which DSAI needs to do now, and that is to be sworn in as the NEW MP for PERMATANG PAUH.

The Smile of December

After a year , this is for you. It seems as if time is catching up with us.



Your smile is the reason my heart remembers,
When you danced by the hall last December,
Letting go of your hands as you went your way,
My heart aches for you to stay.

Your eyes showed me that everlasting warmth,
When with others, were long gone,
You are the sparkle amongst the crowd,
Are there any other words i could say about?

Some say it's love at first sight,
Tried denying with all my might,
What might fool others, could not fool the heart,
As loving you, it too plays it's part.

Your goodbyes clouds my mind,
How did i not read between the lines,
That you would not have left,
If it weren't for my goodbyes and waves.

Holding on for you to stay,
Regretting the day you walked away,
Will you still be there this December?
For a smile which i'll forever remember.


-adam K- 26-08-08

The Rose in Gold

If you were to ask me how i felt for you, then this should be it.


It's undeniable that time is passing us by,
Without realizing that, will you see me as a fool?
It's conceivable the reason you cried,
Cause after all these years, friends are only where we stood.

Wishes of us were left unheard over the years,
You left me wondering will this wait be able to hold,
Forgive me, of all things , you were the one i feared,
Please stop my mind from potraying you as the rose in gold.

In this silence , i thanked God for letting me met,
Someone i never could have,
But it's not about what would or should have been,
But as an excuse for me to exist it seems.

Like a shadow that follows you through the years,
As part of your life, noticing me you sadly can't,
When your radiance shines and unfolds in others,
Mine doesn't seem to matter, when i have none.

A love that blossoms inside an empty jar,
Never being able to reach out for your soul,
We have been so near yet so far,
From here, you'll forever be the rose in gold.


-adamkuek- 25-08-08

A Reason To Believe

You blamed me for not trusting you, when you trusted someone else. = )


Today, i've found every reason to believe,
Every reason i thought i couldn't have seeked,
Every reason i believed i never would need,
That every smile & tears you've shed were for me.

Sorry, for i've kept you wondering,
Wondering about every meaning of my words,
Sorry, for i've buried all the feelings,
The feeling of seeing you that hurts.

The smile on your face gradually fades,
The last smile we had lingers still inside of my head,
If only i've believed in fate,
I wouldn't have hid myself from you and wait.

The heart ceases to beat it seems,
Ever since you showed me the tears in your eyes before it fall,
Give me a reason to believe,
That your heart will continue to beat,
Eventually without me..


-adam kuek- 19.08.08

I'm Fine Without You

You're gone before you're back.... That's how fast it was.


I'm fine without you,
Without your smile and your presence,
The air i breathe no longer carries your breath,
A goodbye to you this August as a present.

Why don't you give me up?
For your new happiness this time around,
I'm fine without you now,
I've given you everything for nothing.

Silence hides and betray your thoughts,
Quietly killing the bond we had,
Can you disappear for the better?
I've given you everything so stop being sad.

Remember you pushed me away,
When i was in need of you,
I was the one to blame,
To fell in this game with you.

You took me away from you,
Everything i've given up for you,
The dreams i had no longer carries your picture,
This time around, can you disappear?

An apology means nothing this time around,
Thousands were heard ever since,
I'm fine without you now,
Even if i've never regretted to be part of this game we were in.


-adam kuek- 23.06.08

Angku Kueh @ Office

If i had to be really honest with you, i am not a big fan of this little cake famously dubbed the "Angku Kueh" . But still, i do had to thank one of the ladies from office who ran all the way from her table to mine just to see me fill my stomach with it. I am sure many of the local folks are well aware of it's existence since it's very common among the chinese folks.

















" Angku Kueh " is shaped exactly like a turtle's back as it signifies longevity, and the dough of the red turtle cake is dyed red for good luck. It also comes in green colour too. This cake is made of glutinous rice and flour with either bean paste or peanut fillings in it. Somehow i find it quite good, and most importantly it's fragrant. It's best served with a hot cup of tea in the afternoon. :)

Zong Zi by Charmaine

"Duan Wu"or "The Dragon Boat" festival has long passed, yet i still am receiving food delights like theres no tomorrow. This time around , it's a whole bag of rice dumpling ( Zong Zi ) made with care and love by one of my friend's mum. I have a feeling she likes me, as in a lot. And i meant her mum.

















Good things always happens to good people and in this case, i am referring to myself. Zong Zi which i had earlier referred it as rice dumpling is a traditional chinese food made from glutinous rice stuffed with all sorts of fillings and wrapped in bamboo leaves. They are normally cooked by steaming or even boiled.

















I had the opportunity to try one of my friend's mum's specialty. My friend told me that her mum spend the whole night preparing it for me. I on the other hand scolded her for not helping her mum because to me , Zong Zi making is a traditionally family event with EVERYONE helping out, but that is less common now due to the fact that girls nowadays tend to work their hands on my body appendages than on some glutinous rice. LOL.

















Ok, enough with all the nonsense. This particular Zong Zi tasted the best among the others. It's fillings are loaded with Char Siew @ Chinese Barbecue Pork , Chinese Black Mushrooms, Chestnuts and Dried Shrimps. My parents gave it 101% out of 100%. It seriously was that good.

















A close up picture of the rather dark coloured Zong Zi. It takes a long time when it comes to preparing a Zong Zi which is fit for a king. I might never know the actual reason why her mum gave me so much of it the other day, neither will i know what secret recipes did she put inside that made it the best glutinous rice i've ever tasted. But one thing for sure, it made me all full after having half the bite size of it. Thank you Charmaine for your wonderful Zong Zi..... :)

Fragrant Pastry & Little Tortoise from Christina

Ladies, apologies as i've been away for quite some time. Do not ask me where. There's so much things to do as of late that i couldn't even find few decent hours to attend to your needs. Anyway, few days ago, i saw a small golden wrapped packet on my table. It was given by one of my female colleague right after she came back from holidays.
















I bet most local folks do actually have a slight idea on what this tiny packet of pastry is all about. But for those who don't, "Heong Peah" is also commonly known as 香饼 .
















Which could be easily translated into fragrant pastries. I notice this particular pastry is made famous in Teluk Intan. Yes, yes, stop the clapping.
















This pastry resembles a flattened ball which contains sweet sticky fillings made from malt and shallot which is then covered by a flaky baked crust and at certain times, garnished with sesame seeds on the surface. I chose the one with the smooth surface just because it reminds me of my preferred choice when it comes to the opposite sex.
















True to it's name, it certainly is sweet and fragrant as well once i took a bite. Normally i don't enjoy pastries but then again, i have too take an exception for this just because it was given by a girl and i just could not say no to her, for some obvious reason of cause.
















Not to disappoint me with a packet of fragrant pastry, i also did received a palm size tortoise figure from my colleague, Christina. How thoughtful of her for thinking of me as a tortoise.
















She must had trouble looking around for gifts for me until she came to the conclusion that this tortoise key chain would do just fine. Even the "Take the souvenirs with you!"tagline justify the reason she took it back just for me.
















I won't be hanging this tiny creature with my keys just in case i would give an impression to the other ladies that i am still REALLY into this sort of things. But i will somehow give it to some lady who deserves it more than i do. Nevertheless, just to be fair, it's a hit among the ladies. They all swoon over it than over me the first night i brought it out. Thanks christina for the ..... gifts.